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Flores Girl: The Children God Forgot

By Erik John Bertel

Copyright © 2005, 2010

Publisher

Millennium Writing

PO Box 7

Centereach, NY 11720

Published 2008

ISBN: 0-9822576-0-0, 78-0-9822576-0-9

Copyright Erik John Bertel 2005-2010

No part of this novel shall be copied, broadcast, or used in any manner without the express written permission of the author Erik John Bertel or Millennium Publishing

This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental. This is purely a work for entertainment, and any similarity to any real or fictional person or event is purely coincidental.

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Dedication

To My Nancy,

You gave me the opportunity and that is all I could ask for.

Your Loving Erik

Prologue

On October 28^th, 2004 Australian scientists announced to the world a startling fossil hominid find they had recently made in a large cave complex on Flores Island. Their discovery, called Homo floresiensis, was seemingly a dwarf variation of an early human ancestor called Homo erectus, who inhabited the Indonesian Island of Flores some 13,000 years ago. The adults stood three feet tall and they lived on the island with modern humans for thousands of years. Perhaps coincidentally, perhaps not, the islanders also have a local folk legend regarding a dwarf race of people that they called the Ebu Gogo.

Since the announcement scientist have been in a fervent debate as to whether or not the Hobbits, as they were called by the press, were a new species or were, in fact, a group of diseased human beings. Anthropologists are now scouring the island trying to find where Homo floresiensis made their last stand when faced with the continuous onslaught from humanity. This is a fictional account of their rediscovery and the repercussions of introducing such innocents to our less than brave new world.

The most important scientific revolutions all include, as their only common feature, the dethronement of human arrogance from one pedestal after another of previous convictions about our centrality in the cosmos.

Stephen Jay Gould (1941 - 2002)

Sarah’s Island

“Why am I here?” Sarah cried aloud to herself while shaking her head against the spiraling winds. To her embarrassment, she observed the two native guides watching her, and she wondered if they had overheard her lamentable outburst. Damn it, she didn’t want to create a scene, not now and definitely not during this furious storm.

Dark clouds continued to encircle the beleaguered boat, and Sarah could only look up while shouting, “Just my freaking luck!”

The guides could see that their passenger was uncomfortable and doing all she could do to hang onto the side of the small boat. The storm chop was worsening while the spray washed over the open boat in a continuous, unrelenting shower over the boat’s occupants. The small American brunette was dressed in her customary khaki long sleeve shirt with shorts and was soaked from head to toe. When the first spray soaked her shirt, Sarah was initially concerned about giving the native guides an unintentional show as the wet shirt clung tightly to her breasts. Now, her only concern was to survive this ordeal. Goose bumps covered her exposed, tanned legs due to exposure from the cold ocean spray, and she fought hard to avoid shivering. She could hear the boat struggling against the swells as a dark, pungent diesel smoke poured from the ancient motor.

“Why did I agree to go on this stupid trip?” she yelled in the direction of the guides.

Supar looked back at Sarah observing how sad and lonely she appeared. Sarah, in turn, caught Supar watching her so she managed a small, brave smile for him that said she knew everything was going to be all right. Unfortunately, she did not believe that small lie for a moment as another large wave crashed against the boat.

The small vessel bounced from swell to swell, and Sarah refused to relinquish her grip on one of the old rusty cleats. The grey, violent storm was rapidly closing in about the small boat, causing Sarah to question her sanity for agreeing to go on this research trip in the first place. What sane primatologist would travel in a boat that wasn’t large enough for safe passage in a second rate theme park, let alone a vast ocean? For Sarah, all of the scientific research and good intentions meant little to her in the middle of this tempest. It was then that she realized the whole boat trip had become a metaphor for her sad, lonely life.

Their journey began earlier that morning with little fanfare as just another routine island-hopping trip. They were traveling from Maumere to one of the many local islands that littered the Flores Sea, a trip that would normally take a half-day, at most. It was just Sarah and the two guides aboard a small wooden boat that totaled less than thirty feet in length. Once underway, the two guides were preoccupied with the operation of the boat so Sarah sat alone while busying herself with the updating of her journal. The morning began with a beautiful tropical sunrise; however, as they made their way into the open ocean, the clouds rapidly moved in, and the water started to get choppy. She could hear the small motor straining against the waves with more smoke than usual filling the pristine ocean air.

They soon spotted their island destination, and Sarah gave an outward sigh of relief at their apparent luck. However, as they got within a half mile of the island, the boat’s ancient motor started to sputter with the strain of its task. The chop continued to get rougher, and to their dismay, the motor failed entirely. The two guides became frantic in their efforts to restart the motor as the strong ocean waves began a ferocious assault on the small boat. Within minutes, they started to drift away from their island destination and back into the vastness of the raging Flores Sea.

The powerless boat drifted for about an hour as the seas continued their violent assault.

“Look!” Supar yelled as he pointed to a much smaller island off their port. Sarah grabbed the old tattered navigational charts from the hold, but the island appeared to be absent from the charts.

“Just get us there,” she shouted above the howling winds as the rain streaked down her face.

Sarah watched helplessly as the guides struggled with the motor in the inclement weather. After much effort amid an unending torrent of unintelligible curses, they finally coaxed the tired motor to start. With the storm continuing to strengthen and after an animated debate in Bahasa, the guides decided to bring the boat into the small island to wait out the rampaging storm. A nervous Sarah tried to use the radio to get somebody’s attention, but the weather was playing havoc with the radio as well. She now understood that they were truly alone in the middle of this horrific squall. The boat rode up and down in the twenty-foot swells causing Sarah to become violently ill with the unending motion. They were out of options so taking shelter on the unknown island was their only possible salvation.

With their approach to the island, a small voice within Sarah cried an alarm, “No Sarah, not this island, get away from here!” Sarah did what she always did, and she ignored the small voice of reason while she dutifully saved the coordinates into her GPS device.

The skies continued to darken as the boat made its halting approach into the relative calm of a small bay. The motor sputtered and hissed the entire way as the boat slowly crept toward the shoreline. After much struggle with the waves, the two guides managed to ground the boat onto the beach. Supar helped Sarah off the boat as she jumped onto the beach. The wind had picked up considerably, and Sarah decided to make her way up the dark, sloping sands of the narrow beach. An intense lightning storm lit the skies above the island, but Sarah barley noticed the theatrics. Instead, she sat on the beach holding her chin to her knees as she fought the waves of nausea that swept over her. She was huddled on the beach for almost a half hour, still feeling the seas riding up and down within her body, doing anything she could to make the ill feeling go away. While she sat, she watched the guides struggling to keep control of the boat while they simultaneously worked on the motor. Feeling guilty that she could not help, Sarah turned her attention to the gathering storm clouds that were swirling about the beach in a maelstrom of angry green-gray colors. In the distance, she could see dark heavy rain bands advancing over the ocean while the heavier rains appeared to be retreating away from the island.

A half hour later the storm finally exhausted its fury as the skies surrounding the island began to slowly brighten. Feeling a bit better, Sarah decided to help the guides with the boat. On unsteady legs Sarah approached the boat; however, Supar could see that she was still green so he waved her away.

“Okay, I’m going to explore the island a little bit,” she said.

“Don’t go too far,” Supar replied back to her. She nodded in agreement as she continued her shaky walk to the tree line that demarcated the end of the beach. The tree line was populated by a number of tall, slender palm trees while the ground was covered with dense, impenetrable underbrush. The storm winds subsided, and a feeling of normalcy returned to the beach as the sounds of nature began to fill the air. Sarah recognized the calls of some of the native birds and started to make her way into the dark underbrush to investigate. Being a trained naturalist, the petite brunette was very comfortable with exploring a strange forest; it was something she had done hundreds of times before without the slightest hesitation. She ignored the numerous branches that scratched her bare legs as she purposely made her way to a suitable sitting location. The restless birds sensed her approach, and they quickly stopped their calling while taking the time to spy on the intruder to their island world.

Sarah found a good spot for observation and calmly settled down to watch nature. Once her movements stopped, a few quiet moments passed, and the birds resumed their melancholy songs. Among the choruses she was surprised to hear the call of the Flores Green Pigeon. Sarah sat and listened to them for a few minutes as she strained to hear if they were singing a different song dialect from the birds she had heard on Flores Island.

And then there was silence.

That’s strange, the birds stopped their singing. Why? Sarah was baffled, since she had been careful to remain motionless in her current sitting position.

At that moment, she sensed it, the very presence the birds had sensed. Something else was now present and that something was in very close proximity to her. Gusts blew in from the beach causing the palm trees to sway in rhythm to the strengthening wind.

More silence when Sarah had a sudden moment of realization that it was a someone and not a something that was close to her! Sarah’s experience told her she was being watched; moreover, she could tell if an animal was checking to see if she was a predator or perhaps potential prey. She could even distinguish the inquisitive glance of an intelligent creature such as a great ape. The forest just sounded different when the great apes stopped to observe her, but there were no great apes on these islands, and, for all she knew, no people either, great or otherwise.

“Mmmrppoohhhh,” a voice murmured, followed shortly thereafter by the low, hushed tones of several other voices floating in the humid tropical air. The sudden onset of the voices startled Sarah, and she looked about in vain to find their source. She heard whispering coming from the brush and felt as if somebody’s curious eyes were focused upon her. Still, she couldn’t see from where or for that matter, know how many were actually watching her.

The voices continued for several minutes, always comprised of several low, hushed tones. She was positive that there was more than one voice, maybe as many as three or more individuals conversing or rather murmuring about her from only a short distance away. They were hushed, definitely male voices that she could not clearly hear or understand. They were communicating; however, it was not a language that she could readily recognize.

No, not quite the coherent voices of people; however, more like the low, unintelligible mumbling of the insane. Their cadence reminded Sarah of another time, perhaps the voices of the damned, souls living in a grey nether world parallel to her own world of light. The voices would rise up and down, grow quiet for a moment and then continue their hushed dialog among themselves. To Sarah, this haunting went on for what seemed to be hours; in actuality, it lasted for a few minutes. Once the voices subsided they began quietly moving, seemingly gliding over the forest floor. Like any frightened animal, Sarah’s senses were at a peak as she continued to feel their presence closing in about her.

From her vantage point, all Sarah could see was a wall of green foliage, and she felt entirely defenseless in her sitting position. She was desperate to escape; however, her limbs had become paralyzed with fear, and she found herself frozen in her vantage point. The hair on her arms stood straight on end; Sarah now knew she was starting to panic. Her breathing became rapid and shallower as fear overwhelmed her normally rational demeanor. Finally, there was a sudden reprieve: the murmuring stopped.

Maybe the guides were nearby, maybe even looking for her.

More silence.

Were the voices gone? Yes?

No, she could still sense someone watching her from the depths of the forest, and her heart sank.

“Who’s there?” she called out in a small, barely audible voice that quivered in the wind.

Sarah was about to cry out when she heard the frantic calls of the guides looking for their missing American guest.

“Sarah! Sarah, where are you?” Supar yelled out.

“I’m over here,” she said in a whisper; however, her voice was too small to be heard above the rising wind. Somehow she knew it was too late for rescue; they were closing in upon her. She tried to see, but now her vision had become cloudy. She tried to run, but she could not feel her legs. Like any scared animal, she remained motionless, overcome by a primordial fear that she could neither name nor see. This fear bred deep within her bones as a lower form of being that supplanted all traces of the logical human essence that was once immediately recognizable as Sarah.

Red in tooth and claw, the unseen menace surged from the brush. Rather than fight, she offered her throat to the horrors, yet their bloodlust would not be satiated with a sudden and clean kill. She opened her mouth wide to scream, but no sounds could be emitted. In turn, her body began to violently twist and shake as if to throw off her attackers; however, there was no escape from the vicious onslaught. Each of her senses began to leave her: first her sight, followed by her hearing and, finally, her sense of self.

They systematically began ripping her clothes from her limp torso and began tearing at her soft skin as if to prepare her body for their consumption. Properly readied and no longer struggling, they were able to feed at their leisure as they tore her flesh from the attached bone while remaining oblivious to the muted cries of their dying victim. No pity was offered and having consumed her flesh and entrails they began to crack open the remaining long bones as they gorged themselves on the rich marrow contained within.

Her attackers were a faceless, nameless, universal terror that she could only surrender to; her flesh devoured for the continued existence of another. There was no pain, just a sad inevitability to her timeless sacrifice as she offered herself to her attackers. The weak of the species was giving up to the strong, and she was swallowed whole into the darkness.

After the feeding was over, Sarah existed no more. Only a large, damp red stain marked her brief passage along the parched forest floor.

Sarah had become food for another.

Sarah’s Promise

Sarah jumped up and awoke thrashing about in her bed, while bathed in a deep cold sweat. Struggling to catch her breath, she realized that she did continue to exist despite the momentary horror of her nightmare. She looked around to get her bearings while trying to focus in on her immediate surroundings. Groggy from sleep, she looked up to see the comforting familiarity of her alarm clock. Through the darkness, her eyes began to focus on the large red LED numbers.

Shit, it was only two o’clock in the morning! She sat up in her bed while touching the front of her gown; it was then that she felt the dampness of the cotton cloth against her skin. Her heartbeat began to slow, and she noticed that her once pristine sheets were now soaked from her recent bout of night terrors.

Damn, how many times am I going to have that same stupid, cretinous nightmare? How many times can I go back to the same island and relive that same, stupid incident?

The dream had subsided from her life for a while, but it was back with a renewed, almost hellish vigor torturing her when she was most vulnerable: sleeping alone. The stupid nightmare was always the same and, yet, it was always so very real to her. A sudden storm overtakes the small boat, forcing them to the mysterious island. It didn’t matter that in reality the storm was no where near the biblical proportions of the dream, and it didn’t matter that the incident on the island happened more than two years ago. It didn’t matter that the guides found her alone in the woods, and it didn’t matter that all three had left the island safely together that day. No, it did matter, because deep in the forest there was a presence Sarah couldn’t see, did not understand and, that for some reason beyond rational explanation, had scared her more than any other time in her life. It mattered a lot because the incident scared Sarah, the normally dispassionate scientist, out of her wits.

Why did it always have to be some strange, mysterious island with bad weather? This is so pathetic; my life is a freaking montage of other people’s inane clichés.

Even with that rationalization, she knew she was scared; moreover, she had every reason to be. If only she could talk to more people about the incident, then, maybe, she could face her fears. Who knows, maybe what she really needed was quality time with an experienced therapist. However, that was the problem with being an intellectual; she knew all of the psycho-babble that would be directed at her. In the jungle she had watched too many of her wild chimpanzee friends become food for a big cat; that said, even she knew there was more to the dream that its obvious primordial shock value. The therapist would tell her that the recurring nightmares were symbolic of her worst fears: that of being alone and having no one else to turn to. Hell, Sarah knew she was truly alone in the world. She was alone on that island, and she was alone now in her bedroom at two o’clock in the morning. Nothing in her life had changed since she left that damn island. Most of all, there was nobody sharing her bed and, if truth be told, every solitary night she went to bed alone was a constant reminder to her of her intolerable loneliness.

For Sarah, the nightmare had become a sad metaphor for her dull, seemingly pointless life. To begin with, Sarah knew she shouldn’t have been on that stupid island in the first place. Sarah was a primatologist; yet, she wasn’t going to have much primate research to do on Flores Island. Flores Island in Indonesia may have been famous for Komodo dragons and giant rats; yet, it had little to offer in terms of primate study. Worse, the famous limestone caves of Liang Bua were strictly off limits to her as well. She was such a fish out of water that the other graduate students would rag on her, even commenting on how the Komodo dragons would “go ape” every so often. It was just another example of their unending juvenile humor, and it always at her expense.

Sarah’s departmental associates had told her that this trip would add nothing to her resume; in essence, the time spent on the island was career suicide. What they had to say didn’t matter much to Sarah. She was there to assist her old comrade and mentor, Professor Brightman with his study of island speciation. Brightman was an enthusiastic follower of Charles Darwin’s work and by visiting some of the smaller islands Sarah had hoped to identify some new fertile grounds for Brightman to continue his ongoing studies of island bird speciation. With the recent fossil discoveries in Liang Bua, Flores Island was quickly becoming the new Galapagos Islands for biologists looking to do evolutionary field studies on island biology.

For Sarah, it was all good theoretical science especially with island speciation, once again, becoming a hot topic among biologists. Even a casual student of Charles Darwin would tell you that islands are nature’s great evolutionary laboratories. Take a small population of animals from a single species, isolate them on an island, and you’ll have a virtual explosion of new species, as they try to occupy the new niches that the island was affording them. That is assuming they do not go extinct first adjusting to their new island habitat. This process, called species radiation, was a major driving force in the evolution of all living creatures, even human beings. Moreover, Sarah was confident that the island research would help her with her own studies of the great apes and the mounting ecological pressures they were facing in their own diminishing forest habitats. In this manner, Sarah tried to find some good cause for her banishment to her island purgatory, away from her beloved chimps and gorillas that were prisoners in the university research gulags.

Upon retrospection the vicious truth hit her: it was all bullshit, and worse it was all so boring and tedious! Sadly, as she reviewed her logic for the trip, Sarah realized that she was very accomplished at rationalizing her dull, rather submissive life. Sarah knew the real reason why she was there on that island. She was acting, once again, as a very serviceable doormat for Professor Brightman, doing yet another big favor for him. Now here she was, years later beating herself up at two in the morning for being his doormat.

There were other reasons for Sarah’s bitterness and loneliness. When the other students got out of hand, Professor Brightman would put a stop to their nonsense by lecturing to them. He also had the unfortunate habit of pointing out to them how impeccably clear and concise Sarah’s field observation techniques were while chiding them for their own shoddy work. This, of course, had the undesired effect of making Sarah even less popular with the other graduate students; well that plus her normally chilly demeanor did not help matters either. Here Sarah was, a grown women past her mid-twenties, being subjected to taunts about being a teacher’s pet. Outwardly, it seemed all so juvenile, yet the sexual innuendos were never far behind the childish name calling.

Sarah pretended it really didn’t matter much to her; after all she was so close to obtaining her associate professor position. To Sarah, the other graduate students just seemed so young and immature, not worthy of her attention nor of her friendship. Once again, Sarah had managed to find herself alone even amongst a group of her supposed colleagues.

The day had started innocently enough; it was just another one of her routine island hopping trips from Flores Island. Accompanying her was one of the expedition’s most trusted guides, and she was the only American researcher going on this day trip. In the beginning, this would give Sarah the creeps, especially with the way some of the Indonesian men would gaze at her. However, Sarah soon learned that the Flores men were just staring in amazement at her pale skin since many of them had limited exposure to western women. Overall, she found most of the Flores natives to be extremely friendly and polite, almost to a fault.

Moreover, Sarah felt good about the day trip because one of the guides going with her was Suparman or Supar for short. Supar was a relatively undistinguished looking islander. He was short and dark skinned, like most of the other Flores natives; only Supar’s graying black hair gave away his advanced years. A wide flat nose dominated his large oval face and, in a similar manner, his missing upper incisor would be prominently displayed whenever he smiled or laughed. Yes, he was undistinguished looking; however, Supar was special because his deep voice conveyed an excellent grasp of English, and he was truly one of the more qualified guides. He was attentive; moreover, his innate intelligence allowed him to understand what the researchers were trying to accomplish with their fieldwork.

Supar was also very personable. More importantly, he had gone out of his way to know Sarah on a first name basis. Every morning he greeted her with a big hello while inevitably asking the despondent Sarah to smile. It wasn’t much in terms of human companionship but compared to the frosty relationships Sarah shared with her fellow students it was a welcome change of pace.

Sarah also appreciated the respect Supar garnered from the other native guides, something she couldn’t get in turn from the other grad students. He exuded a quiet dignity, and it was clear to Sarah that when Supar spoke the other native guides paid very close attention to him. Under his seemingly friendly veneer, Sarah knew that Supar was sheltering a much stronger ego; one that he carefully hid from the other American researchers in the expedition. Reflecting upon the other native workers, Sarah realized she did not have much use for them, and those feelings only intensified when the camp suffered through a rash of stolen equipment.

It was two-thirty in the morning while Sarah’s brain raced to resolve the questions and puzzles in her life that she knew were unanswerable.

Why was she alone that day? Recalling the day’s events, she felt a degree of bitterness towards Patti, the obnoxious graduate student who was to be Sarah’s traveling companion for the day. Unfortunately, Patti wasn’t in any shape that morning to be traveling anywhere. After having spent a week in the forest counting various bird populations, the freakishly pale Patti, used her day of freedom to cavort topless with several of the male grad students on an isolated beach. The insipid slut Patti neglected to use a sun block, and after several hours of exposure to the blazing equatorial sun, a painful, lobster-red hue had seized control over most of Patti’s body. To make matters worse, the incredibly stupid Patti spent the night drinking at a local bar in a failed effort to try to kill the pain from the sunburn.

When Sarah greeted Patti in the morning, Patti’s essence consisted of little more than a raging burn with a wicked hangover. The funny part was that Sarah found this a vast improvement over Patti’s normally sour disposition. Sarah quickly recognized that Patti, in her present sad shape, wasn’t about to leave her tent that morning. Sarah didn’t even bother trying to find a replacement for Patti, knowing the smug attitudes of the other grad students, and Patti’s antics had already delayed her departure by an hour. Consequently, Sarah found herself alone when the incident happened because some other stupid and immature soul had decided to frolic in the sun the day before. When was she going to frolic in the sun she wondered?

When she returned to Flores, Sarah was unable to talk to anyone at the camp about the incident. Why? She didn’t trust anybody, and because she was so unsure of what really happened on the island. Feeling that you were being observed by an intelligent presence really didn’t exactly qualify as a lucid scientific observation, even in her books. Indeed, most people would be fairly dismissive of the incident in question, ascribing the event to that of an imaginative young woman sitting alone in the wilderness. After all, the two guides had not seen or heard anything even after her repeated questioning. No, Sarah felt that it was best to keep the incident a secret until her return to the states where she hoped she could find the right person to confide in. Professor Brightman had already left camp the week before, and she really didn’t know the other academics well enough to trust or burden them with her story.

When Sarah returned to the states she cautiously shared her curious encounter with Professor Brightman. Her trepidation was unwarranted as he matter-of-factly asked, “Why didn’t you go back to the island to investigate some more?”

On balance, it was a perfectly logical question he was asking of her. She told him that among the thefts in the camp was her GPS device with the island’s coordinates; at least that’s what she told him. She didn’t tell him that even if she had the coordinates she couldn’t go back because the entire expedition had become somewhat uncomfortable for her, and in reality, she was actually too frightened to return to the island alone.

Really, how do you begin to break the news to your mentor that you are an antisocial coward?

As she tried to make sense of it all, she drifted back to another of her strange, chimerical encounters on Flores Island. The research team had just broke camp so Sarah headed with the other members of the team to the town of Maumere. They were waiting for their respective flights home, and Sarah decided to leave the hotel to take her final walk in the market space. She was casually walking among the vendors, when a small, native man with a shaved head began to attentively follow her as she wandered from stall to stall. He was somewhat innocuous looking, dressed in a crisp white short-sleeve shirt with dark short; however, his staring was so intense Sarah stopped and curtly asked him, “Can I help you?”

She stared directly at him taking care not to avert her gaze from his brown eyes. She was several inches taller than he was so she didn’t feel physically threatened by his presence; in fact, she was more irked by his constant staring. While she waited for his response, Sarah fidgeted with her clothes in the slim chance that her apparel was somehow amiss.

“Are you Sarah?” he asked.

“Yes.”

“Very good, nice to meet to you,” he said as he continued to stare at her. He extended his hand for a handshake.

“Huh, okay, same here I guess,” Sarah said feeling uncomfortable with this unwanted attention, and she limply shook his hand.

“Good, are you happy?” he asked eagerly.

“What? What is it to you? Who are you, the happy police?” she said as she walked away from the weird little creep.

“I’m interested in all sentient creatures; I’m happy, I hope you are too?” he said as he pursued the escaping Sarah.

“This is ridiculous; of course I’m happy, if you are referring to life in general,” she responded as she turned to face the brazen little man.

“Don’t think about your answer, but are you happy now?” he asked.

The man looked at her while measuring her response, and he looked deep into her eyes. Suddenly, Sarah felt guilty for her abruptness and her apparent deceitfulness.

“Are you happy this moment?” he asked again.

“No, strike that answer. I am not happy at all. That’s okay, this will change; it always changes. Why should you care?” Sarah asked.

“I’m happy now, you should be too,” he stated. “All we have is now, you can’t wait for tomorrow to be happy. Your life is not what you want it to be?”

“I guess. I could, no, I should be doing more,” she said.

“Not better? Not now?”

“No more, it’s not just about me personally. I should be doing more for others,” she said.

“You study animals?” he asked.

“Yes, primates in general, who are you?”

“A friend, can’t you tell?”

“No, but how do you know me? Have we met before?” she asked in a more civil tone. She was warming up to the small inquisitive man with the thin-rimmed glasses and a ready smile. She suddenly realized that he could be a simpleton so she found it easy to smile back at him. She looked into his brown eyes just as she heard a large bell sound several times in the distant hills. Its resonating echo could be distinctly heard above the din of the busy marketplace.

“No, we haven’t met before,” he said.

“Did you just hear that church bell?” she asked.

“No, I did not, did you? Have you had dreams of your past lives?”

“Huh, you mean like reincarnation or transmigration? I don’t believe in that.”

“Yes, I do mean reincarnation. Too bad you don’t believe. So do you believe in fighting?”

“No, I am a firm believer in non-violence.”

“But would you fight to protect innocents that cannot defend themselves?”

“Strange, in all the time I have been here on this island I have never heard that church bell before. As to protecting others, of course, not to defend the weak would be cowardice.”

Funny that wasn’t the typical commentary you would expect from a simpleton, she thought.

“You know, I don’t get this, first I get the hell scared out of me on that stupid island, and now I get a visit from mister happy. No offense, but what the hell is going on here?” she asked.

“Why the answer is quite simple: your destiny! Look in your pocket,” he said.

Sarah dug through the pockets of her shorts and found a paper with three pairs of numbers scrawled on it.

“What is this?” she asked.

“You know precisely what it is, look closely,” he said.

“Damn, those are the coordinates to my island. How?” she asked.

“Good, I am glad to help. I trust you to do what is right. I did my task and I must go now,” he replied.

“Are we done talking? Who are you?”

“Yes, we are done, and I am on my way. Be happy now!” he said while turning and walking away.

“You know this conversation makes absolutely no sense to me,” Sarah said.

“It did to me and someday it will to you. If I told you everything it wouldn’t be your future, it would be your past. Frankly, where would be the surprise? Where’s the choice?” he asked.

With that final comment he disappeared into the anonymity of the crowd. Flustered by the brief encounter Sarah walked away.

“Now, where’s that damn church?” she said as she surveyed the surrounding hills for the source of the bell.

Prior to Flores, Sarah never attributed much meaning to her visions. However, the nightmares kept coming back to haunt Sarah, as a constant reminder of her spiritual timidity and of her failure as a scientist to seek out the truth. She knew that the recent news from Flores about the digs being halted had awakened the nightmare once again, and here she was at two-thirty in the morning realizing that the totality of her life had been reduced to a simple combination of her intolerable loneliness and her myriad fears. The whole damn island nightmare was a stupid cliché but, then again, so was her desperate, tedious life.

Sarah had expected so much more from herself, and this empty shell that now masqueraded as her life couldn’t be allowed to stand. Always present was the gnawing feeling she was not living the life that she was destined for. Moreover, she didn’t know what was worse; was it the tedium or was it the loneliness? In contrast, at least her nightmares offered the promise of adventure and, who knows, maybe even purpose, to her staid existence.

In turn, Sarah logically debated each option. Before she could come to a decision, the small inner voice became vocal once again telling her, “You must go back to the island!”

Crap, that strained small female voice had returned, the very same voice of reason that told her to stay away from the island in the first place, was now telling her to go back.

“Coward, you have to return to the island,” the voice commanded.

Stupid, schizoid voice, make your freaking mind up as she debated her future in the darkness and whether or not she should renew her Prozac prescription. That settled it, at three in the morning Sarah did the unexpected as she embraced her nightmare as though it was a glimmer of hope.

She turned the lamp on, sat up in her bed while retrieving a small note pad from her nightstand. On the pad were a series of three number pairs she had written down from the previous night’s dream with the curious small man. She stared at the three pairs of numbers for a couple of minutes. To her surprise, she did recognize them: they were the longitude and latitude coordinates to her mysterious island. Through her dreams her subconscious was telling that her that she had to return to the island. Her destiny was now clear, so much so that even Sarah the scientist couldn’t rationalize away the true meaning of her stupid dreams.

With the paper in hand, Sarah made a solemn promise to herself to return to the island of her nightmares, one way or another. She wanted to face her terrors and to witness what she couldn’t face alone that terrifying day on the island. Surprisingly, that was a destiny she could readily embrace in the early morning hours as she left her bed and diligently went about changing the damp linens.